One of my favourite books, The Alchemist has a line that says: The universe will conspire to bring you what you desire in your soul. Well, today, I discovered that the universe sometimes conspires against you achieving your goals. Just to see what you will do.
I started out my run in the humidity and after about 1km wondered how far I could push my body. So the mental games began early. Then within minutes, I got a brutal toe cramp. So the little voices started getting louder. “It’s humid. Your toe really hurts. You might want to cut it short today Kelly.” Then the rain began. This made me listen to the nicer voice that started telling me, “The rain is cooling, it’s refreshing, keep going!” So at that point I decided I could push through.
However, it wasn’t pretty. I spent the entire run trying to spread out my toes to find a comfortable position that might alleviate the pain. I think I might have looked like a penguin. I just gave up on that and accepted the pain and the awkward foot position that I chose to run with. Then I turned a corner into heavy wind and rain. I started to wonder just how wet an iphone could really get before it was an issue. It was pouring. At that point I’m sure I even yelled outloud at both voices, “COME ON!!!”
The only thing I could do, to forget about all of the challenges, was to refocus on my breathing and my music. I changed my music and started thinking of #temt. I decided this was even worthy of a blogpost. I believe it was Greta (@gret) that said she was going to begin running. Well, Greta, I spent the last part of my run thinking of you and hoping this would inspire you to keep at it. 5 months ago I wasn’t a runner. At all. I NEVER thought I could do it. But I had someone who believed in me and helped me believe in myself. Today I realized that when you listen to the nicer voices in your head, you really can achieve your goals. So keep at it.
Humidity. Rain. Toe cramp. Wind. Harder rain. Still toe cramp. Further distance. Blogpost. In that order.